I know that life won't break me

<3

To be honest with you I'm having a great week so far. And it's great just because it's great. No reasons, no explanation. Just like that. Just because it had to be. Because I needed it to be.
I'm starting to realize positivism really works. Like...  don't know. I didn't exactly believe in all mumble jumble about positive thoughts lead to good karma. I don't know if it's karma or something else but positive thoughts really lead to something good.
Sometimes I wonder if I had spent my time more feeling happy just because it's sunny outside for example... would I be happier by now? I mean not that I'm not now. But there are still things I want to be better. Not to mention I still have my crisis appearing from the thin air. Like Sunday evening. I cried almost all night for no particular reason. Of course I had a lot of things in my mind, I thought about my grandfather, about friends I've lost, about the really nerve wrecking end of the school year. But not one of this things is new or something I haven't thought about before. The result was I went to school with red eyes and one hour of sleep. Which by the way is really not enough.
In the same time I'm happy. I can't say I'm not. I'm finally seeing a light in the tunnel. And it's not the incoming train. Well, I hope so. But I finally feel like there's a exit. The darkness I used to live in the last four years is finally going away. Slowly but it's still moving. I feel like if I want to I can really accomplish the things I want to. Or maybe I'm just growing up and my teen hormones are going away. But whatever it is, I love it.
You know, I think it's time for me to really start writing again. And not just here. I mean like really writing. I have so many ideas in my head and for once I really feel inspired. I almost feel like I need to write. And maybe that's why I'm trying to let it out here when I should definitely let it out at my last project stopped at the beginning of chapter 1 - number 101 in my list.

I guess I should stop for today. Before I get too winy and... well, boring.
But hey... tomorrow is Thursday. And I don't expect a bad thing to happen (because something bad ALWAYS happens on Thursday). But not tomorrow. Tomorrow I will make it better no matter what happens. Because that's how I want to be. Yeah, aren't you proud of me lol lol